Saturday, July 26, 2008

the journey

Te Busco

Feeling naked, venerable, you know that thing that happens when you realize you are not where you need to be, with who you need to be with, or don't have the skills to do what you think you want to do. When suddenly the Universe appears to be conspiring away from your favor instead of for you. I get this searching feeling, this nudging that tells me its time to move, and if I don't listen, my soul begins to suffocate. So no matter how painful, naked, venerable I feel I push myself to move on.

Searching can be daunting especially if you are not sure what it is you are looking for but know you have to find it. That unquenched thirst, that hunger that wont leave you. Its not something you have conscious control over and that's the challenging part. Trying to get out of your own way and the good intentions of others. Staying centered with a clear vision and then working to surrender to Spirit for guidance.

Then I find I am in a transitory moment when I think I have found: where I should be, who to be with , or what it is that needs to come out of my work , career, community or studio. Those are the times in my life when I land for a moment to learn a lesson, a new skill, make some great memories but if I tune in lingering in the distance is that voice. So I either decide to settle even though its getting harder to be myself or I get back on the road and try again. Hoping to find respite in the new adventure , skill set building, or personal challenge.

Maybe its the process that keeps calling, to keep us growing and open to learn lessons in this earth school. Maybe there is a final destination within reach and we only need to see it with our corazon . Or maybe the silence lies within both the journey and the destination.

Esperanza exists within my corazon so I work to remain open and love filled toward all who cross my path. I try to look for the lessons, share lessons learned, gain skills, and honor the evolution of self that presents. I pray for you to have a clear vision on your journey as well.


  1. I just found your blog on Planet Textiles, and then your blog. It is wonderful! Your view of life, spirituality and tolerance resonates with mine. You say things so well. I will be reading your blog. Thank you for taking the time and trouble to post your thoughts, views, and feelings. I sense you are a healer. A very special person. Rosemary

  2. Gracias Rosemary for your kind words. I struggled about posting this one.You have given me affirmation that it was a good thing to do. Thank you and I would like to know more about you and the work you do, kindred spirit.

  3. Hello Sabrina, and gracias to you for your note. I like to have occasional conversations via e-mail with people I "meet" on-line when we make a genuine connection. I invite you to write me at You might also enjoy looking at my website, i look forward to hearing from you. Rosemary